Filed under: friends, life, love | Tags: friends, grief, illness, life, love
a serious post, hence, ….the serious cody bear face:
so, yes, i have been a little maudlin lately. and, sure, i’ve been questioning why we’re here, what’s the point. sensitive bloggers and online friends have noted the change in tone at cody bear’s friends. (you know who you are!)
i won’t lie, much of today’s emotion was happy tears: saying good bye to dubya and hello to a president who somehow manages to say things that make me feel like he understands what is pissing me off in the world today.
but the remainder of the tears?
my friend is dying. she’s been fighting it for years. it’s not my story to tell, but i must mention a couple things.
she is my friend because she is loving, and thoughtful and has never backed down from showing how deeply she feels.
she is the biggest fan of my dog, cody bear. she thinks he’s beautiful. when he runs. when he’s doing tricks. when he’s resting. and he, in turn, has connected with her from day one. resting by her side, protectively. freezing if his paw touches her oxygen line. backing up safely without yanking her line. and she, noticing, being so proud of him for his sensitivity.
my best friend’s wife. he has never left her side and has cared for her without looking away to a life without i.v. lines and years in hospital.
the doctor. who never lost her ability to diagnose ailments even years after being unable to practice medicine because of her illness.
a friend who understood what is important to me, and never ever questioned how whacky those things are. who welcomed those whacky notions.
a gift to everyone who knew her.
and now we just wait. i watch as her family is torn between wanting her to stay and understanding her right to slide away from a life of pain and struggle.
and everytime my phone rings, my nose starts running and my feet go numb before i even know who it is.
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